My best friend got a boyfriend back in January and is replacing me. She swears she's not, that I need to have faith in her, but it's so fucking blatant. I started to come to terms with going from talking daily to maybe every other day until he had to move in with her. Now I get to talk to her maybe every couple days if she's not "too tired" to do so. I hate the druggie bastard. He claims he's recovered but how fucking recovered can he be if he's willing to buy her illegal sleep aids and himself illegal steroids???? That's not recovered that's just another addiction. Every time we talked for a while she'd talk about him. I need him GONE. I want to die. I'm stuck in a state of depersonalization and it's going to kill me. I've learned that love is selfish and immoral and I'm fucking tired. I can't enjoy anything with any romantic themes anymore because it's fucking selfish and immoral and all I can think about is how much I fucking hate him. I haven't gotten to talk to her in a week.