Man, can’t believe something as stupid as this is making me suicidal again. Granted, I guess it’s a build up of things over time. I keep saying I don’t know how much longer I can put up with this, but I genuinely don’t. I also don’t think I’ll make it to 30. It’s only a matter of time I suppose. I’m sorry I’m such a failure. Everyone who loves me shouldn’t. All I’ll do is disappoint them.