We lived to 26 and learned how to live for ourselves without a partner and with only a small circle of online friends, when we are too sick to go out with the friends close to us. Don't cut your life short when there is so many amazing things to experience. Its so hard to see them when all you've known as a child is pain. I hurt myself in different ways every day starting at 11 when I did not understand. Nobody wanted to help me because I was selfharming and queer and those are horrible influences to the other kids when you are in a Christian school. So we got isolated by parents and teachers. I turned to the internet and thought I found acceptance but I was used and groomed and abused instead until it's all I thought I was worth, especially when my parents wanted me to marry him. I saw things online I shouldn't have to. I couldn't get a therapist or any physical health doctors. School was so hard. Then I realized I didn't have to go to college and I could leave my abusive parents.