I've actually been thinking of commiting, i can't take the pain much longer. All my life I've been feeling like i was always unwanted by my family, especially my mother. My friends always had other friends they'd rather hang out with than me, best friends always had other best friends and not me. I feel like if i disappeared no one would feel my absence. Nobody would cry and no one would really miss me, much. I hate myself for wanting to leave my younger brother behind, but I've felt since i got diagnosed with type 1 diabetes like she hates me. She can't even hug me without it feeling awkward for both of us. Rest of the family judges me for my depression and having dropped out of uni because of a big crisis back then. All my life I've been fighting a battle i kinda always knew i would lose since my early years.