I don't know what to do, I am young. Not 17, 16 or any of those teen things, a newly teen. My family argue every single day. Mostly about dumb things, me, my brother or some other family members. I am afraid of telling any of my family members that I am suicidal, even though I am still a child I don't want to be here. Bad things happen everyday, my best friend commited suicide and I feel like I was the cause of that cause I wasn't there for them. I feel disgusted with myself and I saw things that I wasn't suppoused to see at a young age. I sometimes just cry, but I haven't done that in a long time. I am going to plan my suicide on July 5th of 2028, but I don't know what I'm going to do. Will you miss me strangers? Will you guys be there for me? Even when I don't know you all? Just to let you all know, I love you and you can do this. Even when I can't. -ON