Sometimes I wish I had been dumber. Like, I spent my school years coasting through, nearly straight A's with little effort. Student awards, gifted program, all that. Sounds great? And now I'm a grown ass adult with the usual set of problems that brings, and I just can't handle them. I don't have stress management skills, I get anxiety when I'm not immediately good at something, and I avoid challenges for fear of failure. I'm gradually letting down everyone who knew me as the "smart kid" or believed I had "so much potential." If only I had been stupid, and had to actually work through things when they got tough and get comfortable with occasionally messing up, I wouldn't be this way now.
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