im so angry all the time. especially towards my siblings. and i shouldn't be i know i shouldnt be but i genuinely cant help it. every little thing makes me so upset. ive put so much into not being like my mother that im exactly like my father. i hate the self ive created but i dont know how to change. therapy just feels like im being talked AT not with. breathing exercises, counting, and all the other bullshit doesnt work. i just want to be different