I just want to wallow. No obligations, just rot in my bed until I feel better. I can't see past the cobwebs of the negatives in my life to find anything good to hold on to. I want to cry, my voice is quiet, and I've never been so desperately lonely.

How rude and stupid my fellow bus passengers are mostly on Brisbane South Side, like 19th March 2026 between 4pm and 5pm With empty seats on the buses still decided to stand and blocked the doors not allowing others to get off or on. Upper Griffith University bus station pushing pass others waiting for the same bus. Boggo Rd and other bus stations standing in the middle in front of empty seats, blocking other passengers views of oncoming buses and the electronic timetables like at Boggo Rd bus station the male with a beard and pink suit and then pushing pass others to get his bus Etc etc etc etc

I'm exhausted from caregiving, which uses up every bit of patience I have, so there's none left for dealing with random folks' "duh" moments, self-absorption or bullshit. It's been a morning of hearing "same BS, different day" from an acquaintance who always has an excuse for not doing a certain thing on time; another person's idea to change something last minute because they forgot we do something a certain way for a reason, like duuude take notes so you remember next time, FFS; and people driving like they are the only one out and about in the world, including not pulling over to yield to emergency vehicles when everrrrryone else had pulled over. I just cannot sometimes, and I'm going to end up publicly cussing some out one of these days.