my online girlfriend aint gonna be able to talk to me anymore for 3 months. Im spiraling. I feel so paranoid. I love her so much, she makes me so happy. I feel like shes the only good thing ive done with my life

i hate how i sweat around people i want to talk to, its embarrassing i feel ugly

I am a 31-year-old male. I help to look after my 72-year-old father, who has parkinson's disease and has a serious mental health disorder. I am at school earning a BSN, and I am taking courses to learn coding on the side. Just to add some new skills, you know :). My father, however, becomes very verbally abusive and says just absolutely hurtful, hateful things towards my mother and me. He is very jealous and always tries to compete with me by saying he will "Go to Princeton and be the big guy on the campus and finally people will acknowledge me and see me for the genius I am. I don't care about anyone else but this. I will be the next Einstein". To my mother, he says, "I am going to divorce you and take $9,000 to Princeton and fulfill my dreams, and you or nobody else can stop me". Even though my Mother, whom is going to be 80 years old, whom I also care for, does EVERYTHING for him. Sorry for bringing this up, but the way he treats her and me sometimes is horrendous. Had to vent.