im in an online friend group, ive known these people for like 1-2 years now and i consider them some of my closest friends. however its getting horrible and i dont know if i can do this much longer. i love all my friends but theres new drama every week and half of them hate each other and i feel like i'm stuck in the middle trying to fix everything. recently one of my friends, due to being suicidal and not thinking clearly, did something horrible and everyone turned against them except me, who stayed up past 1 am convincing them not to kill themself. i thought i could handle it. i did handle it and eventually they said they wouldn't do it. after i decided to go to sleep it just hit me all at once. i felt sick and horrible and i kept replaying it in my head and i barely slept. since then i've barely been eating or sleeping or anything. ive thought about ending it. i havent talked to the group in a few days, just thinking about it makes me want to throw up. i dont know if i can do this.