I miss them so much. I said I hated them for what they did but all I can think about now is that things could've been different. Did they actually know they made me feel like I was completely worthless to them? I guess I should let go but it really isn't that simple. They understood me on a really deep level that other people didn't care about and even hated me for, and that's how we kind of met. We connected by something important to us. I felt so at home and understood with them and the others that were also there. I got rid of all of them because none of them talked to me, and the person I talked with first had completely neglected our friendship for their new relationship. I was so angry not long ago, now I just miss them. I can't stop thinking about them. I'm constantly wondering if I made the right choice blocking them without explaining. I wonder if I should've been angry at them at all. Maybe they didn't know. Maybe I'm not meant for true friendship.