i can’t help but feel so numb i hate it. i want to feel empathy so bad, but i cannot express a single good emotion to people i care about. friends, family, you name it. i don’t know what love is i don’t know what happiness feels like, which is weird because all my life i’ve had such a loving family. why am i like this? what’s wrong with me? all my friends of years just leave me because of the way i am and i just don’t care at all and move on quickly. i find solace with having few people in my life but i can’t help but feel like an alien.