my best friend he took his life when he was 14 and it's just hard to navigate the grief we were somewhere between friends and lovers we had a really interpersonal sort of I don't know just like we had a really good bond I'm sorry if this is kind of scattered I'm using speech to text but I just I really miss him and there's no one I can talk to about him and I just really wish I could talk about him even if it was just for a little bit because after like the person first dies no one cares no one wants to hear about your grief people will compare it to their own and they will minimize yours and it's like well the person I love the most took his life when we were 14 I we know each other since we were tiny I thought we'd spend the rest of our lives together and it's a lot