There’s something that I should have told my parents when I was younger but now as an adult I don’t think I’ll ever tell them. I experienced COCSA when I was younger and I feel like it’s still somehow still affecting me even though it happened so many years ago. I also experienced covert abuse for many years and only recently I learned about it. That my parent’s action towards me can be considered SA. I always thought of my parent as someone who endured a lot through life, I trusted them so much, they made me feel safe. Yet they make me cry and feel like crap because I can’t meet their expectations. They know I hate being touched, I try to push them away but they don’t really care, they only think about themselves. I wan't live my own life, yet I'm scared that I'm going to miss them and i'll be all alone. I feel broken and I'm struggling, idk