Im thinking about some old days with my boyfriend, when we first meet. He was so cute and romantic. He used to gave me so much attention and affection. Ik that's normal since its the first days. But... I just really really miss that touch, those kisses. I feel like its all my fault.. maybe I was looking cuter earlier, my body wasn't that ugly. I gained weight but its not too late to repair the demage I did to my body. I wonder if he get tired of giving those attention to me. I just really really miss it but telling him how I feel about this almost ended up in a break up becouse he felt nof good enough for me, but its not true. Without him idk where I could be right now. I can't think of a life without him. I wish I was better, good looking... maybe then he would be more comfortable to be around me.. What if im even too ugly to let him be seen around by his friends with me next to him? I look like a dawn literally... so that's understandable.