you know, its so deeply humbling when someone who just isnt a good person is so liked and viewed appraochable in ur school. i dont want to say i hate her, even though its theraputic to for once say i do, even if i dont really. shes extroverted, good at drawing, knows a lot of niche shit and stuff and is genuinely interested at it. i dont want to be like her, i just want to be a better version of what im trying to present as. because when she wants to be seen as the cool nerdy art senior with cool interests and shit , it works, shes exactly how it makes sense. i wonder if everyone is js collectively ignorning her narcissistic behaviour, even getting to the point of throwing LITERAL TANTRUMS when she cant win or do something to her standards. its sad, but also immature bc it rubs off on other ppl. why is it her "friends" are the one to take care of her like a big baby and theyre all intimidated, all collectively silent.