I'm so tired of being here. I don't want to, but I'm still here no matter how much I don't want to be. I hate everyone, i hate my friends friends, i hate my friends, i hate myself, all i do is hate. I wish I could normal, I wish I didn't have to turn out to be the person I am. I wish I could know what it felt like to be held, or loved. I wish I knew how to hold things without crushing them. I'm sorry, I just want to go to bed for a while. Everything is so exhausting recently.