Well my mom says she's fine but whenever she drinks it kills the mood and she doesn't understand why I'm scared of her when she drinks despite the fact when I was only 10 or so she became an alcoholic and lasted for a few years.. it's only been a short while since she's started getting better. And tonight it didn't help my step dad, the only other adult, was drunk too. I hated it and I ended up wanting to kill myself tonight.. which I haven't had those thoughts in a month