Im sorry. I just want to be okay. Im sorry i reported him. I just want my family back. i just want to be normal.

Im behind in school. The sophmore slump is kicking my ass. My rapist came over today. My moms still with him. My grandmother hates me. I feel his hands every moment of everyday. I'm so lonley im venting to strangers on the internet. fuck my life.

I feel like im autistic and that might the reason I am the way I am. I am sometimes an airhead and very sensitive to point where the smallest things could bring me to tears. And I always get shit for crying over things and I try to tell people that I'm doing the best I can to control it, but they still ask when it happens again. I say a lot of stupid shit and I have to deal with genuine assholes and bullies every so often and I just want to crash out at them, but I know it wont help. I would tell an adult but that wouldn't do anything either. I just want people to treat me like a normal person and not the 'weird one' or anything like that. I dont want to be highly sensitive and i dont understand why im even like that. I cant even take part in a friendly debate because I'll get so heated that I'll start tearing up.