I feel so guilty for releasing something bc i just spent a good amount of time scrolling on this website and reading what others released. I know my feelings are valid but I still feel like i don't deserve to vent about what I'm going through. My heart hurts for everyone. I hate knowing I can't do anything to save or help anyone. I hate feeling helpless and useless. I spend most of my days doing nothing but doomscrolling. I go to a self paced school but I haven't done a single piece of work since I was enrollled. I feel even worse bc I used to go to an online school where I had live classes and all my classmates from there have graduated. I'm seventeen and I just feel so behind and everything feels pointless. I feel very numb and empty and genuinely haven't felt a strong emotion in months and its killing me because for the longest time in my life thats all I've had but now its gone and I want it back. I keep praying to God to help and fix things not only for me but for the world.