I recently got out of a two year relationship.. I've worked non stop on myself, switched schools for next school year and im joining the schools color guard. Me and the boy almost got back together 5 times and each time he called it off, its been about a month since we talked and today was his birthday, we texted all day, from 8 am - like 12 am. I'm exhausted from crying and talking to him, I told him how I was so scared through it, he was my safety, my safe place, my everything, and he left me like it was nothing. He changed but through today I was seeing the old him, the one I fell in love with, im confused and stressed out and im scared to have it happen again, I don't want to miss a chance but I don't think I want to have a chance.. im trying to figure it out, its just so hard to deal with. I just dont know..