i don't think people actually like me. i don't have anyone who texts me first. i don't feel like i can ever be myself because people tend to be rude when i'm authentic with others, but then when i put on a persona, they don't like me either!! i fear i may be fundamentally unlikeable. i try so so hard to be good at what i do, to have people like me, and nothing works. i'm not even a bad person, ultimately. i just think i have something wrong with me that everyone else can see but i can't.