I hate how much I care about my image, how people see me. I HATE IT! I can't stop overthinking about wht they are thinking about me. I can't stop crying, I can't stop letting down my walls right before my soul gets crushed, I trusted someone to vent to, to talk to an I just get yelled at for being to negative, for needing a night off, for wanting a break. I have been go-go-go nonstop since exam week and I'm so fucking tired, I changed jobs for the summer for higher pay and omfg I hate it so much! all I want to do is finish my English for next years work and decompress from the school year but I don't nor will I get a chance to do that this summer. I'm going into grade 11. this is the year that university's look at when they decide to let you in or not. I want to be an archeologist, but I can't, the only thing I can do with a archeology degree is be a museum curator or something with history, but I don't wanna be a teacher... idk what to do with my life and I'm running out of time.