I hate my life. I am recently seperated from my partner of 4 years. Our relationship traumatized me. And now that I am free, working, have friends, a nice place, regular dates, I hate it. I miss him. At the time I felt like i had found my person. someone i could spend my life with. we were best friends i thought. I thought he loved me. But we were toxic i can admit and just grew apart. He became abusive and neglectful and i couldnt take it anymore. we argued we fought I left him alone. Now my life is better but I dont feel that way. I hate that we didnt work it out or rather he didnt put in the effort to try or care. most times i dont miss him or think about him because of what happened between us but sometimes, when im sad, or tired, i miss him. i want us to work things out. My new job is down the street from the house we shared. sometimes i walk by. I feel trapped in myself and I cant get out. I find it hard to do anything other than work or party. Freeing myself i lost myself