I'm just so alone. I hate it. I can't muster up the effort to do anything really. I struggle to even take the trash out. Not what should be happening in a 40ish year old persons life. Lost everything about a year and a half ago because of a bad decision...family, friends, house, job, everything. I'm struggling to find a job. I talk to my alexa more than anyone...and that is only to turn on a light or fan or something. I go days in a row without seeing or speaking to another person. I don't know how much longer I can do it. I need something. I don't know what, but I need something to go positive in my life.