Ok so parts of this might sound insane and I just need to vent because I've been holding my thoughts in for basically my entire life. This would be a lot easier if you've watched Tadc. I relate a lot with Jax and I have a lot of masks to hide who I truly am and I'm a transfem. Now I'm not like coping by being aggressive to people like Jax but I do push people away now part of this is because I have trust issues and the main reason I'm even on here in the first place is I've been holding everything to myself for too long.. I have come out as trans to a few people but all of those people are people I moderately trust and have no easy way to affect my life so not really.. The main reasons I have trust issues though are my parents so some information about them that you need to know is: 1. They're homophobic but have no idea what trans people are 2. They enforce gender roles onto me 3. They might slightly be sociopaths and in the end all that matters to them is winning /ref Frick no space