Not sure why I feel this way, it started this year and I haven’t stopped feeling this way ever since. It’s kinda been going on and off but school also switched between being a distraction and helping me cope but at the same time it hurt me even more. Then it got even worse when they started talking about her. I don’t even know why, I haven’t noticed this happening before but they like almost seemed as if they made it all up and they put all this pressure on me and acted annoyed when I finally snapped. Over the break I was so caught up in all of it that I harmed myself. Cut my arm and didn’t tell anyone. After, they kept doing it and they all seemed mad at me so I kept apologizing even though I hadn’t done anything wrong, I don’t know why I still feel so sad for no reason. It’s like one day I think back and I can’t think of anything bad that ever happened to me to feel upset and I’m happy but they next day or even the next hour I all I can think of is all the bad things that happened.