My boyfriend of 3 years doesn’t know why I hate myself but then doesn’t make an effort to make me feel wanted and loved. We haven’t had sex in idk how long even if I am the one to always validate and make him feel wanted. He said I don’t have sex appeal. I feel a breakup on the horizon but it’s hard now because we have a trip upcoming and our lives are so intertwined. I feel so stuck, I want to disappear. All I want is to feel wanted and loved, I feel like a disgusting freak for wanting connection