I don't know what to do, he left me. We we're dating for 4 months and we were classmates for years. He know I tried to kill myself before but still dated me. He was nice. He listened. HE LISTENED. I knew at times he didn't understand, but he tried. He was perfect. My family? Perfect. They listened too, but they we're a bit prone on taking action. I didn't want therapy. I tried over and over again, slitting my wrists over and fucking over again. But he listened, he was so damn perfect. I felt like my problems, not eating anything, lashing out on people, pleasing others, and talking too much all faded away. Everything people hurt me about didn't exist anymore. Those weren't flaws. They were me. But then he left. I had no idea he was so busy listening to me. He killed himself. Why was I so damn selfish. Why didn't I check up on him? Why didn't he talk to me, was I not trustworthy? Why does it hurt so much. suddenly, I feel the urge to kill myself again, he took me with him to the grave.