I've been so unbelievably sick this entire week and December of last year. I had a harsh surgery, had Flu A, strep multiple times, I've had POTS, hemorrhoids, lumps, stomach bugs, everything. I don't know why or what's going on but I can't help but feel like I'm just the sick child of me and my sister. It's all so expensive on her. But I don't know how to not get sick. I'm tired of the in and out of the hospital, the itching, aching, everything is horrible. I've thrown up too many times that I feel like if I do again I might break a rib. I've picked up horrible habits again. Not sleeping, not showering as much, hurting myself, and just my hygiene just dropping. Eating has slowed back to one meal a day and I spend hours and hours on end in bed rotting or crying.