How can you go to work to afford a home with me and fall asleep beside me when you dont feel anything for me and feel those things for someone else You never wanted to have sex to begin with, so did my new trauma really make it hard to show intimacy towards me, or did i just become repulsive when you learned about it? Do you think I cheated on you? What did you see in them? How could you tell me that Im the only person yo feel comfortable being around and talking to, how could we build our lives together, how could you say you only want to be alive because im alive, only to do this. Ill never stop loving him but god it is so lonely and I know I have failed in life. We made such a cute inspirational couple to all my online friends too, that i cant even tell them. And you don't even know I know :')