i miss my ex wife. it’s been almost 2 years now. we have random contact every now and again. everything ended so rough with her, such a horrible story. i pushed passed everything with her and just tried to move on. even after all this time our relationship just eats away at me. even after hearing what i thought i needed to hear. everything still reminds me of this woman and makes me want to be with her but i know i can’t ever look at her the same. so instead of figuring myself out i smoke to the point i end up puking every. single. day. i’m sick. i don’t feel good. i don’t want to be sad anymore.