Was already feeling like shit about my medical conditions like POTS, and feeling useless because of Veyo transport issues, I wouldn't have to make my mom and partners life so stressful if i just wasntuseless and could freaking drive a car and we didnt have to go through this every week and I just wish I could be normal. At the same time, my favorite webcomic released a new chapter and pages. So many people were hoping for the villain character to become physically disabled. Disabled readers tried to explain how cruel it feels to them and that it is still ableism and eugenics to view disability as a punishment, but the people being criticized did not care. It got so bad the author had to put comments on review to approve. I have my own comic planned and one of the characters is disabled and well after seeing how many people in the fandom responded so hatefully, i don't feel comfortable as an artist anymore. I hate being sick. I hate being me.