no matter how much people keep saying “lean on me “ or “talk to me anytime” i still feel that subconscious guilt that i shouldn’t tell them anything. (im also a daughter of immigrants btw) my parents especially have this problem. compared to my sister, we are very much different people. at every turn it feels like i dont measure up to her, and any weakness that i admit to, turns into fodder for them to use against me in an argument thats really just a self disguised attempt at shoving their own ideologies down my throat. my sister is not a perfect person, but, i would think that she would at the very least give me solidarity when it comes to them, but..no. if anything she plays into it. she’ll let them complain to her about all my “bad behavior “ and at the same time tell ME that i’m the one being unreasonable and just apologize and let it all blow over. idk how it’s going to end with them, but thanks for letting me vent at least.