Man idk I just feel so numb Im trying my best to change but I can’t man I just fuck Im always stressing my self out like man idk fuck it’s like Im asking God to help his done with me idk I’ve done too much for God to every want to deal with me idk. Yesterday I was so happy man idk I just can’t man fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk Ik this sloppy but who give a man I just Im so conflicted with what I want. Im trying to be me but something’s not letting me idk. I haven’t been getting sleep lately just up all night thinking about how much of a failure I’ve been. All the people I’ve let down fuck . My grandpa does every thing for me and just was being selfish fuckkkkkkk. I am losing hope i will ever feel something I was so happy man. Idk I just want something right now Im not ready for anything mannnnnnnnn fuckkkkkkkk help someone help me fuckkkkkkkkk fuckkkkkkkk I’ve letting my self go over thing I can’t control and need help to control I just need help man fuck please God save me