i feel genuinely stupid. not in like haha funny quirky way, but genuinely an idiot. i feel so unobservant to the world around me and i dont know how to do anything, and anything i try doing never works out well. it's actually embarrassing and ive started secluding myself in an effort to maybe make myself better, but i also am sick of being judged. it seems everyone knows how to do everything and im so behind. i couldnt even pay for parking earlier, like i just did everything wrong and i felt so stupid. it's literally paying for parking it isnt that hard. or when im driving and i just do something wrong, i just feel so disappointed. i never did well in school and ive always been pretty socially inept, but i think it's gotten worse, which is infuriating because im getting older. i just barely graduated high school a month ago and i still cant do anything right. i just feel so stupid. i wasnt even planning to make it to 18 tho so 😭😭✌️✌️✌️ yet here we are