Im eleven and I feel completely trapped and isolated: I feel like I am locked in a cage surrounded by crocodiles. I can't escape, but I don't want to ask for help, so I just keep all this stress locked inside. I don't feel like I have any real friends or anyone in my life I can actually trust. I want my independence and a future: I have my whole life planned out. I want to have Discord, start a YouTube channel, go to barber school, and eventually open my own shop. But I feel held back because my mom and grandma don't want me doing YouTube, and I'm not even supposed to know my own phone password. I am dealing with deep family pain: I am carrying a lot of heavy questions and hurt. I want to know the truth about what happened to my dad, I miss my brother deeply, and I have to deal with my sister hitting me and calling me names. On top of that, I want to explore becoming a Christian, but I’m afraid my mom won't approve. I'm forced to hide how I really feel: Every single day, I pretend to b