There's just to much going on im such a fucking failure, I just want to be like someone like actually worthy of love shit. I know im hard on myself and stuff idk im such an attention seeker fuck I should od on fent or smth. Noone fixing cares if I kms tommorw tf. Uhhh. Idk what else to type... uhmm. Different tangent- sexuality _ i think im gay or bi or pan but idk all the terms and sound like the woker ts frying me. My parents are supportive and shit but I feel like .. idk . I'll never find a partner ever. I have a crush ir a hyperfixation on this boy. I dont even know why. But I feel like sad or empty or idk I need to stop this feeling of longing for him. Unless he's into which if so yay but like how can I love someone else if I don't love myself Ummmmm............ What elseee I have a sport that I do and I really hate it I want to quick but my parents literally won't let me so I have to do ts for 2 fucking more years. I have to start my college shot and im doing like 6 aps im frie