my mom genuinely hates me. theres no other way to frame this, or even speak kindly about it. shes the only person to consistently disregard my autonomy as a human being the inly person to outright call me a whore when i was 12 the only person that sucker punched me in the jaw. she’s narcissistic and her entire world revolves around herself and this supposed idea of someone perceiving her. she disgusts me with how much shes in love with herself. one day i’ll be brave enough to just kill myself and be done with her and this shitty fucking life in which she made sure to leave her hands on. thanks mom you made every meal a regrettable one. if only in some other universe you discovered your passion for something useful instead of giving birth to kids you cannot stand and hate. one day you’ll realize how unimportant you are in this big old world. one day you’ll realize that your idea of god is far from the truth and far from heaven, you might never make it in because i will never forgive u.