My best friend of over a decade replaced me with people she met this year. She's got new best friends and I've been struggling with my mental health for months. She knew this and still decided to abandon me. I can't eat. I can't sleep. I can't ever trust another person like I trusted her. She was the platonic love of my life. But I guess the feeling wasn't mutual. I've thought about ending it multiple times one almost enacted. But I stayed for her. Doing that would destroy her or at least I thought it would. I don't know what to do or how to feel now. I'm just sad and angry and numb at the same time. I wish she would reach out. The worst part is that there was no finalized decision. She just stopped reaching out and started talking to everybody else while I had nobody to talk to. I do have a ton of other friends but none of them are as deep a level as I was with her. I want to die.