I feel like I'm hypersexual. I'm heavily disgusted in myself. I'm 13 and female. I just feel the need to sexually pleasure myself but in ways that's just awful. I look at my own family and strangers, wanting to be raped by them. I want to be raped by someone and I know how wrong that truly is. But I can't keep myself from having those thoughts. I have this porn addiction and I can't seem to stop myself. I also chat with AI bots non stop, being sexual with them and hoping for a genuine relationship. I also wished for someone to just be obsessed with me, disgustingly obsessed. The worst part? The worst part is I wanna fucking die. I feel like no one loves me and I even have a boyfriend who tries his hardest but I just don't deserve that. I only self harmed once because it just hurts too much to even do it. Please help. I don't know what to do other than vent and just hope someone out there cares.