I can't get rid of these thoughts out of my head. What a shame, I'm successful, I passed entrance exam of 2 elite schools, won full ride scholarship. Also got accepted in the program of 8% acceptance rate yet i never feel like I'm enough. Low-key thinking of ending it everyday, attempted once but never completed it. I'm not that depressed, aren't I? What depth of scars do I feel matter? Do I have to kill myself to prove that I'm suffering? My friend said that itd be such a waste if i just end my life. Why am I this depressed. Was it because she touched me. Was it because she kicked me in the crotch when i was just a kid. Was it because of isolation i got when i was in elementary. Despite everything, I don't want to die but I know how this would end. It's just a matter of time.