I'm tired of living everyday like this. Trying to act like everything is normal. But no, my parents our freaks, my siblings like to bully me, and overall I just feel suicidal but I can't act on anything because if I make it I'm probably going back to the mental health clinic. I don't want to go back. I want to go to heaven or hell. Idk which ever one I deserve. I feel trapped when I'm by family, but trapped when I'm at school. And at school, I always just have to act like I'm fine. Because everyone there is silly. I would ruin the mood.