Lately I've (19ftm) been thinking about something my dad said to me when I was 17. I've been no contact with my parents since I was 18, but I still find myself excusing their behavior and abuse. I hate that my dad said what he said, but it also helps me justify going no-contact My dad was taking me and my siblings to the mall. We got on the topic of what we would do if an apocalypse happened. The conversation started very normal, with suggestions about food storage and what we'd use to travel around Then my dad says something to me thats completely out of left field. "To keep the human race going, I'd have you tied down and raped until you got pregnant" I didn't know what to say to this. I just started crying. Like, wtf He got mad at me for being upset. He said it was a joke and that I'm weak and too sensitive. But in what world is that an ok joke for a father to make about his child???? I'm glad I don't talk to him anymore