god I miss rosegawa SO MUCH. it’s gotten to the point at one time I starved myself and stuff js bc of the terrible decisions I made that made them leave me. ever since that I’ve never felt the same. I have SO many regrets in my life km wondering if I should even bother to talk to anyone knowing how I fuck most things up. Even when my one friend try’s to find someone to be friends with j somehow ruin that shit too, I don’t know how to stop ruining everything I touch