Everything, I'm struggling with an ED (Eating disorder) and I just don't feel like i'm getting supported a lot. I mean I was, but not anymore. My mother forces me to eat which isn't a bad thing cause I need to eat, but it makes me drift away more from food, I'm trying and everybody says eat but it isn't that easy. It's a struggle trying to retain a healthy relationship with food right now. No one really knows and I've tried to seek professional help but it wasn't helpful. They kinda said i'll just get admitted and my mother has given up and it just hurts. Once I heard my father say I'll end up in the ground soon enough and my therapist was like oh is that the only things you heard? No they directly said it to me, I heard it clear as day. I just hate this and I keep on thinking about offing myself and SH, and theres this girl who i've known for years and complains that she has to go to therapy like its a good thing and shows it off. While I suffer on the inside.