tw but I feel so alone and sad all the time I gave away all of my razors to my boyfriend to prove that i wanted to get better and that I'm going to stop cutting but my family and my boyfriend make me so sad and angry that it's the only thing I can do to release that pressure I have no way to go out and buy anything to cut myself with I'm going crazy I feel so alone he hangs out with his friends more than me while swearing up and down I'm perfect and he loves me and he wants to spend the rest of his life with me but he goes and gets high at his friends house and ignores me all day even when we had plans he told me he'd hang out with me more if I did all of the things he does with his friends but he also doesn't let me get high because I only do it when I'm depressed and I want him to like me I would change anything about myself if it meant he'd hang out with me and love me I feel so alone I have no friends I love him so much but I don't think he feels the same way