I feel so alone, yet I don't want any friends because I fear I might hurt them or they might hate me because I might be too annoying. I'm 21 years old, male, my mom may hate me because I'm gay, my father may hate me even more, I have no one, no net to trust myself, I'm not even fucking sure if my career may be the right one for me, I want to experience so many things yet I feel too stuck where I am, what the hell am I supposed to do?