I hate my life and feel so lonely. I’m a 17 y/o girl who turns 18 in about five months and my life has been everything but fulfilling. I’ve never been kissed or anything, because im too fat and ugly for anyone to love me. It’s so frustrating having to listen to all of my friends talk about their sexual and romantic experiences, meanwhile i can’t even get anyone to look at me for more than five seconds. I wish i was pretty and skinny, so maybe someone could think that I’m worth going after. I do have a 27 y/o coworker that’s taken a liking to me, but it feels like he’s distanced himself from me recently. He was the only person in my life who gave me physical affection, and i don’t care that it probably wasn’t genuine, i just want it back. I watch so much soft porn because i yearn for someone to hug, kiss, cuddle, and touch me, but nobody wants to. It makes me so sad to think about the fact that I’m going to leave high school without any romantic experiences. Sometimes i just want to die