I wanna die. I have been wanting to die for a long time now. I'm 18 now, and i've been feeling like this since 13. I don't know what's wrong with me, i thought I was getting better now that school has almost ended, but it only made me feel worse. I have no ambition, no future plans, no will to live. I am an awkward person, not socially relevant, not good at talking, not good at anything. The only few people I was friends with have started to ignore me. They won't text unless i do first. My mom is never home, and my dad doesn't live with us anymore. I know people care about me, but I've come to a point where i genuinely don't care if they feel sad about my death. I know they'll get over it. I regret everything, but at the same time nothing at all. Would it be different if i were born prettier, smarter, funnier? Or would I have been feeling the same emptiness i feel everyday? If you're reading this, you're struggling as well, and i am very sorry, and im sure you can go through it.